butterfly kisses

It has been such a busy week. I don't know how the heck I kept it together but I did manage. God sent some pretty neat gals -- angels in disguise, more like -- to help keep me from totally unraveling.

Maryann, my best girl; a Dr. Phil in skirts, constant source of enthusiasm, logic and love

Chiki, my good source of constant distraction; keep those fabulously ridiculous quizzes comin'

Greza, my constant gimik girl & fellow movie buff; source of really good books, recipes and kiligs

Tita Paz, my mom, friend, tita at the office; constant source of support, wonderful anecdotes, yummy recipes and sound advice.

I am looking forward to a stress-free weekend.

The weekend was as I hoped for - relaxing. It was that, in totality, although it had moments where I was on the brink of screaming bloody murder. I don't know why I put up with what transpired. I can't tell if I was imagining things or my mind was in hyper mode. But at Sunday's end, all was well.

The downpour had much to contribute to me keeping it real and keeping my wits about me. That rain also signaled the end of summer. I was so eager to welcome that respite from the sweltering humidity. Too bad it didn't rain Sunday night. But at least, it wasn't as muggy as it might have been had there been no early June shower earlier that day.

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I know that some of my frustration stems from not finding that space that calls home to me. Very elusive. Truly. It makes me think that maybe I am pushing for something that is not yet meant to be mine.

While the stubborn side of me refuses to accept that, the rational side of me cautions me to slow down, relax, and acknowledge that finding the right space to call your very own takes time.

Well, I waited this long, a few more months can't hurt. Especially when it's the perfect sanctuary I find.

life sans coffee is boring!

or is it really? maybe i am just thinking that because i have been drinking coffee since 1997 until 01 May 2005. gosh! i can't believe it's been more than a month that i have gone without. wow! i feel so accomplished!


i suck at this "be careful what you wish for" thing...

GOD loves me and gives me what i ask for because i don't ask for something that's bad for me. but...i need to be more specific, i think. or i can't be specific enough! HE did give me what i asked for, but didn't give advance warning HE was giving me an answer. surprise, surprise! i now see something that comes with the package that gives my face the impression of a huge ? forever etched on it. SIGH! no one is perfect, fay. get real!


weekends are for having fun!

"fun" for me these days spell R-E-L-A-X-I-N-G. in my room at home, hanging out a friend's house, or .... hanging out at a friend's house. i shouldn't be stressed. the mall is getting to be a stressful place. i should definitely avoid the mall unless i really have to buy something or meet someone. chiki posed a good Q last night: why haven't i been out on a weekend trip? well...weekend laag with E was what she meant....i don't want to think about that.


i should definitely do those HR policies we talked about last night

geez. this is gonna be a fun couple of months. just what i really need.


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Ironic how seemingly unimportant the thoughts that run through my head during the 15 minute travel time from home to the office. But what is unimportant to everyone is important to me. This is my life after all.

PISCES

The Bottom Line
It's getting hectic in here, so make sure you take a break. Don't let yourself feel overloaded.

In Detail
It's so easy -- and tempting -- to just vent, but that won't bring you the understanding or peace you're searching for. What's important is to acknowledge those feelings, but not necessarily act on them right at that moment. Trying to drown them or make them go away doesn't work in the long run, either. Just remember that like everything else in this life, they will change and pass. Hold onto your equanimity.


This is so what I am feeling right now. I do feel a really really tempting need to vent to someone about their whole attitude toward things in general, especially their treatment of me when I didn't do anything wrong to them. But I had made the decision earlier today to just let things be. They may change in the next few days. Talk about uncanny!

Patience has never been one of my virtues. But a very close friend told me to Just hang in there, patience will take you places even if it AINT your virtue. I am in total agreement.

They say self-preservation isn't selfish. Self-love is important. I totally agree. How can you give of yourself if you have nothing to give?

I have been going to the office early the past two days. Work, work, work. I am slowly wondering how I got to be such a workaholic. I can only put off being away from the office for so long, I feel myself slowly heading to a burn out. I have to pace myself. The next vacation I am planning for is not until September (Camiguin) and November (Sagada), hopefully!

For now, dvd marathon on weekends and the occassional dinner with friends during the week day suffice to balance my work life and social life.

Can miles truly separate you from friends... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there?
- Richard Bach


*shared by chiki

I have a feeling this is gonna be a long month for me.

Time to gear up and get ready.